There was a time when I longed for an ideal, romantic love. My life story seemed to prove that it didn’t exist. Consequently, I thought that perhaps God didn’t exist. My pinpoint of a beam, searching for the truth about Him, grew dim as it swept the darkness.
Finally, like the young woman in The Heart of Rose-Marie, I cried in desperation:
“God, I’m tired of spiritual limbo. Your way has to work in every circumstance, for real problems. That’s what I want to test.”
My discourse with the All Mighty began:
“So what is faith?”
“It’s naked trust, and I haven’t had much experience.”
“What kind of experience do you need?”
“Experience with trusting in the ultimates.”
“What are the ultimates?”
“Life, death, health, economic security. An ultimate for me is to find my reason to be, who I am, my place of belonging. Another ultimate is to love and be loved. God, for Your way to mean anything, I want it tested in these ultimates.”
From that day on, I began to search for situations where God’s way was tested and worked. I began to interpret my life experiences through the lens of Him proving His way in my joys and challenges. I began to recognize the genuine, ideal Love that was working in my heart.
I began to get to know Him.
The better I know, the better I can trust. Even in the ultimates.
So, how has God proven His way to you personally, in your ultimates? Especially in matters of your heart. How have you gotten to know Him?
“In him we live and move and have our being.” Acts 17:28